When I am All Alone

there are times when i feel sad..
feel sad being ignored by someone who I wish I can hold on to..

there are times when I feel regret..
regret for knowing the truth about my life..

there are times when I feel lonely..
lonely when there's no one to wipe my tears or share the pain I felt inside..

there are times when I feel down..
down where i think there's nobody understand me

there are times when I feel happy..
happy when I think of the sweet memories in my life

there are times when I feel rejected..
rejected when I feel like I am just a bother to someone..

there are times when I feel cheated..
cheated when the truth is not like what I been facing off for all this time..

there are times when I feel like hoping..
hoping when someone I like treat me and care about me..

there are times when I feel like being hated..
being hated when the person whom I like doesn't even smile at me..

there are times when I feel like my heart is cracking..
cracking when the voice within me let me hate myself..

there are times when I feel bad..
bad when I can't even do anything good or better for someone I love..

there are times when I feel annoyed..
annoyed when someone doesn't even understand a single sentence that I'm saying..

there are times when I feel relieved..
relieved when there's someone is here to wipe my tears away..

there are times when I feel touched..
touched when the person I admired, said he love me like I do..

there's only sometimes..but most of the times I feel alone,lonely..
i keep on smiling like nothing happened even my heart is cracking..
i feel sad when i keep crying but there's no one's there to wipe my tears..
i feel like giving up..

coz i have given so many hints..but they didn't even understand that i love them much..!
i am so alone..

with the history of life being buried deep inside my heart..

leaving so much scars and pain to me..
i feel terrible..

coz the person whom I love is not able to share my pain coz they didn't even know..
how could I be strong..if there's no one to support me..
how could I go on when there's no reason for me to do so..

i keep falling down..
failed to heal the pain i feel inside..
i keep looking forward..if there's something i can do to avoid this pain..
but it is just a look..without a meaning..

i keep thinking that i have hurting others heart..
with the pain i feel inside..

i just cannot realize the loves and the cares that are waiting for me
i just don't know..
I'm just so scared to know..but then why i keep hoping?

i don't know..i just..just hoping that person will understand..
hoping that there's someone to take my feet back on ground..
wipe my tears and say to me..
"it's OK..I'm here now..whenever u need me, I'll be there for u"..
but still it seems impossible..

when the truth within me keep making me unconfidence..
even it hurts..still it is the truth..
to whom shall i share those tears..

that i cried alone in the dark regretting..

bout me....